So Thankful For The Bless

Hello everyoneeeee! How are you guys? I hope you guys are all in good way.
Ugh, how long did i abandon this blog of mine? 
God, i was so busy, like very damn busy with this shit called senior year. Exams are everywhere, practice are everyday, taking course is a must and blah blah blah...

Belum lagi seminggu kemarin ini, ujian semester ganjil yang 'sedikit' gue anggap sepele dan akhirnya gue kena karma. I failed at my Geography test (sigh) 
Anyway,
Tadinya gue memutuskan untuk post-an kali ini tentang confession gue mengenai...ya biasalah, love.
Crazy, stupid love. 
Tapiiiii, ternyata something great happened to me just now. I couldn't believe it at first, but yeah it happened and it did for a reason. 
Apapun alasannya, gue tetap bersyukur sampe sujud syukur karena hal ini udah terjadi. God writes or life story, he knows every chapter of our life cycle, he know what's good or bad for us even though sometimes it's not the way we want. And for that, i am thankful. God gives me more than i deserve, that's a serious thing. Even my thankful won't be enough to pay off everything God has given me. 

Thank God.
Alhamdulillah.

And it's the end of October...and i got my "seventeen"

Hello everyone!
Wazza?
Sorry, i haven't posted anything here because so many things happened this month. I can't even tell you one by one because they are just so many. 
Anyway i'm here now, and i'd love to share somrthing with you guys!
And oh, i miss writing blog so much <3

October...
All i can tell you is that, this month is quite special to me.
I don't know why it is so special for me, oh yes i know!
Oktober adalah bulan dimana gue lahir.
October is my birthday!

Dari semua kejadian yang terjadi pada gue di bulan Oktober, yang gue inget hanyalah ulang tahun gue.
Ya iyalah, who doesn't memorize their month of birth?
By the way, my birthday was on October 16th.

And it was very special to me because i've received the best wishes and gifts i've ever or never asked for. But most all, because i've got some best, best friends anyone could ask.
Kecuali untuk satu hal, yaitu dia.
Apa yang terjadi dengan dia?
Dia yang belakangan ini menjadi topik atau inspirasi untuk setiap tulisan gue, di blog ini atau di lainnya.
Dia adalah......

The Theory of Love

Hey everyoneeeeee!!! Wazzaaaaaa
How's you all doin'? I hope all of you in a good condition.
What time is it? Haha, it's midnight and you should be sleeping by now, Res...but turns out i can't sleep so here i am, blogging after almost a month i haven't said any words.

Ugh.
Senior Year is driving me insane! It's killing me slowly inside, these! These steps to graduate, to collage, to future and to everythinggggg
Semua kegiatan bener bener menguras tenaga dan mostly waktu gue. Seminggu penuh pulang sore, dan kalo gue pulang lebih awal,segunung tugas menanti. Belum lagi stress and over-thinking about choosing the right national university and bla bla bla...
Gue gak ngerasain ini waktu kelas 11. Hidup gue bahagia tanpa ada bayangan deadline PR dan tugas yang menghantui. Kelas 11 mungkin adalah masa-masa terindah gue di SMA dan masa-masa gue suka sama.... ah sudahlah,

Tapi mungkin, itu juga kesalahan gue. Terlalu terlena dan terbuai dengan bebasnya peran sebagai pelajar dan asyik main kesana-kesini, asyik sibuk dengan laptop kesayangan dan menyelesaikan novel yang sampe sekarang masih gue sembunyiin dan gak ada orang yang tau.
Namun sekarang, berhubung gue gak bisa tidur padahal besok adalah hari Senin, hari yang laknat menurut gue dan hari yang semakin dekat menjelang UN and stuffs, jadi gue putuskan untuk nulis sesuatu aja disini!
(Plis Res, itu gak ada hubungannya!)

So here we go... "The Theory of Love"
Apa sih itu?

Something to Keep Your Eyes on Me

Hey my beautiful readers! Wazzaaaaa! 
How are you people? 
How's the Eid Mubarak effect on you? Oh, it affected me, a lot.

So anyway, i didn't bring anything to share to you this time. I'm just here to keep you update about me, to keep you think of me, to make you NOT think that i might be dead, i'm still alive.

I don't even know what to say here....

Oh, remember my previous post? That one before 'breakfasting'? Probably you forgot it so here, THIS ONE it's about a writing competition.
And what about it?
Yeah, i lost.

My Break Fasting on Monday, 29 July 2013

Wazzaaaaaa!
Hello and hello everybodeh! How y'all doing today?
Gak kerasa bulan puasa udah mau selesai dan kita (pembaca blog ini yang muslim) akan segera berlebaran! Woohoo!
Anyway, gimana kabar puasa kalian? Jangan bilang baik kalo sebenernya engga, inget ini masih bulan puasa!

So in ramadhan, you, me and we must get those invitations that they called "bukber".
Yeah, every year we  must get them. Meskipun terkadang, orang-orang yang mengajak kita itu itu lagi. Speaking of "bukber", kemarin kan ceritanya kelas tercinta gue baru ngadain buka bersama itu. Aneh ya? Kita udah sekelas 2 tahun tapi baru kali ini ngadain bukber + ngumpul bareng.

I don't know why it could happen, but it doesn't matter anyway.

As you know.... wait did you know? Umm, STAHP!
For your information, kelas gue itu maniak banci kamera dan itu hampir semua isi kelas maniak bersama. Jangan nanya, gue sendiri pun heran.

My classmates are like this, when there's one person or two take a picture then they immediately they'll yell "IKUTAAAN!" or "MAU DONG!" and etc blablabla...
It happens to either girls even boys.

And of course, yesterday we took many pictures. Mungkin sekitar 300 keatas jumlahnya dalam kurun waktu kurang lebih hanya 2 jam.
Crazy man, crazy!

Daaaan, inilah beberapa jepretan acara kita kemarin! Check it out!!

That New and Different First One

Hello! Hello! Hello! Hellooooooo! (ala Karmin)
How's everybody doing? 
Marhaban ya Ramadhan! Selamat berpuasa dan menambah pahala, teman! 

So, bisa dibilang ini post-an pertama gue di bulan puasa dan sebenernya gue ga akan membahas seputar puasa gue hari ini atau seputar susunan rencana bulan ini, tadi gue sahur pake apa, buka puasa pake apa dan blah blah blah... that's not what i want to write here.
Terus apa dong?

Jadi gini, malam saat pemerintah sedang sibuk menentukan jatuhnya puasa pertama pada sidang isbat, yang mungkin sebagian dari kalian ngikutin perkembangannya karena ga ada kerjaan, jari tangan gue gatel ingin ngetik sesuatu. Akhirnya terciptalah suatu puisi! (yay)

Biasanya sih gue ga pernah basa-basi dulu sebelum mem-post puisi, atau malah gue langsung naruh puisi itu di page My Writing tanpa kalian ketahui kalo kalian tidak cek.
But, i wanna try something different this time. Beside, this poem is different from any others that i have.

Singkatnya, baru kali ini gue bisa menghasilkan sebuah poem yang bersajak seirama.
Well, i won't do any chit-chat so just check it out my friend!

He Loves Me, Not, He Loves Me....

Currently Waiting For Something

Helloooooo my readers! (is it cool if i call you that?)
How's everybody doing on holiday? How's your final report? How's your pocket situation? Is it full of money or ran out of it?

Haha.
I'm just trying to improve my comedian-side here...if that works (well, i figure out it doesn't)
So about a week ago, i posted some photographs from my study tour and i guess i still need to tell you guys that it was one of my beautiful memory to me.
And now, i thought about this today so i guess i have to write it down.
Yap, here we go!

Oke, jadi sekitar 2 bulan lalu gue mengikuti lomba TYAR (Teen Young Adult Romance) Novel dari penerbit ternama Bukune.

Gue discovered lomba itu akhir Februari sedangkan deadline pengumpulan naskah novel 30 April 2013, jadi ada waktu sekitar satu bulan buat gue menulis sebuah novel.
Persyaratan lomba ini gak terlalu sulit. Naskah harus berunsur percintaan, tokoh berusia antara 17-25 tahun, latar boleh dunia sekolah, kuliah atau perkantoran. Berkisar antara 75 sampai 150 lembar dengan format font Times New Roman pt 12, spasi satu, margin standar, kertas print A4. (masih inget aja ya gue)
Saat pengiriman jangan lupa sertakan formulir lomba yang diisi segala macem tetek bengek dan gue tanda tangani diatas materai 6000 (itu pertama kalinya gue tanda tangan diatas materai, udah kaya jual beli rumah ye) gak lupa sinopsis cerita novel, oh naskah dijilid rapi.

Inget banget, gue menyelesaikan satu novel sekitar jam segini, berjumlah 102 lembar. Malam itu juga tanggal 25 Maret 2013 gue mengirimkan soft copy novel gue kepada seorang teman sebelum diprint out untuk dia baca dan revisi, dan akhirnya gue kirim naskah itu keesokkan harinya.
Dengan penuh harapan dan doa yang gak putus, "Bismillahirohmanirahim, semoga juara." kalimat yang gue ucapkan sesaat setelah memberikan amplop naskah kepada petugas Tiki. Gue sadar, dari tadi dia udah nganggep gue sedikit gak waras tapi....ah sudahlah.

Anyway, kalian mau tau cerita dari naskah novel yang gue ikutsertakan lomba dengan penuh kepedean akut itu? Ya, gue kasih tau sinopsisnya aja ya!

Jadi gini....

Kenangan Manis

Hai hai hai everyone! How y'all doing? 
I hope everybody's doing well!
Fiuh, akhirnya gue bisa menyisihkan waktu untuk menulis sesuatu di blog kesayangan ini. 
Yah...walaupun gue (lagi lagi) sedang mengalami Personal Conflict atau Konflik Pribadi dalam diri gue, yang gue sendiri gak tau penyebabnya apa. 
Tapi, karena gue udah menjanjikan dalam hati untuk mem-post hal ini dari jauh-jauh hari ya harus gue laksanakan. So here we go...

Seminggu yang lalu, gue baru aja kembali dari study tour ke Jogjakarta yang diadakan sekolah gue. Tour itu berlangsung selama 4 hari perjalanan pergi dan pulang. Disana, gue mengunjungi UGM, Keraton, Pusat oleh-oleh, dan Malioboro pada hari pertama. Lalu Borobudur dan Baturaden pada hari kedua, sekaligus kembali menuju Tangerang.

Hari keberangkatan menuju Jogja yaitu pada tanggal 9 Juni 2013 sekitar pukul 7 pagi. Sekolah gue menyediakan 9 bis, yang berarti satu bis untuk satu kelas. Dan sudah pasti gue bersama kelas tercinta gue, 11 IPS 2. Di perjalanan, banyak hal-hal dan juga kenangan indah nan menggelitik yang mungkin akan teringat selalu oleh gue (gettin' cocky now, aren't i?) 

Now, let's take a look at tons of pictures we took while on tour!
P.S: Get ready to be embarrassed, my friend.

Something Gone's Terribly Wrong You're All I Wanted

Aku duduk termangu di atas sebuah kursi yang menghadapkanku pada langit sore.
Betapa indahnya saat ini.

Sore hari setelah kejadian itu, yang mengubah semuanya. Sore itu aku memikirkanmu. Memikirkan sesuatu yang tak seharusnya aku pikirkan. Atau tepatnya....seseorang yang tak seharusnya aku pikirkan.
Kau tak seharusnya begitu. Kau tak seharusnya berada di otakku selama ini. Dulu aku tak pernah menginginkanmu, sekarang apalagi kau tak mungkin menginginkanku. Namun aku, aku kini terlalu menyayangimu.

The Ugly Butterfly

Based on a true feeling.

She was beautiful but only her could see that
She was sweet but only her could feel that
She was faithful but only her could keep the heart

Because the man whom she loved never paid some attention

She flew
And she hoped she would landed on a flawless space of his heart
Tragically, he left her no space
She actually cared
But the man she loved always pushed her away

Because she wasn't good enough

She was just like the others
She wanted to be cared, she wanted to be wanted and she wanted to be loved
But also she, wasn't really like the others
She was loyal, honest, loving and she would never turn on someone's back

But no one seem to understand, especially him

He saw faces not honesty
He saw bodies not loyalty
He saw looks not loves

He only say the beautiful bee that could sting and cheated on his fragile part
He would never see the ugly butterfly
That would protect every pieces of his heart and throw the pain away

He would never see her
Because she was the ugly butterfly

Blue and Flower

(A Short Story)

Setangkap roti tawar berisikan selai srikaya tergenggam di tangan Erka. Sambil terburu-buru menuju mobil yang sudah dinyalakan mesinnya, ia entah bagaimana masih bisa mengatur berbagai bawaan termasuk roti tadi di tangannya. Dari dalam, ayah gadis ini memanggilnya dengan nada tinggi.

“Erka, kenapa buru-buru sekali?” panggil ayahnya yang sekarang berjalan mengikuti Erka keluar.

“Aku telat Yah, hari ini adalah hari terakhir latihan ditambah gladiresik eskul teater.” jawabnya.

“Tapi apakah sedini ini? Kamu sadar ini baru jam 7 pagi?” tanya ayahnya lagi.

“Seharusnya jam 7 aku sudah di sekolah, Ayah. Aku pergi dulu ya, besok Ayah lihat pementasanku bukan?” Erka berdiri di depan pintu mobil menunggu jawaban dari ayahnya.

“Iya sayang, pasti ayah akan datang ke pementasanmu.” sang ayah lalu mengecup kening anak perempuannya.

Erka tersenyum dan masuk ke dalam mobil. Sedetik kemudian mobil sedan silver sudah melaju kencang di tengah hingar-bingar jalan di pagi hari.

Sesampainya di sekolah, Erka segera turun dari mobilnya dan menyuruh Pak Edi, supir Erka untuk pulang dan menjemputnya nanti setelah ia selesai. Erka melangkahkan kakinya ke ruangan aula. Ia memang sudah terlambat , terlihat disana semua pemain dan kru pementasan sudah hadir dan mereka sedikit menunggu Erka.

Something Deep I Want to Share... But I Can't

WAZZA PEOPLEEEEE!!! How are you guys? I hope you all doing great!

Wow, lama tidak berjumpa dan lama saya tidak menulis di blog ini. Ha-ha.
So the reason why i didn't write much was that stupid drama project in my school. Gila! Itu bener-bener bikin gue tepar, bahkan hampir bikin semua murid di sekolah gue tepar. Bayangin aja, untuk menyiapkan pentas drama berdurasi kurang lebih 1 jam, itu butuh berangkat pagi pulang malem dari sekolah selama hampir 2 minggu!
And sadly.. and always, i was the one who stress much, who most tired mentally. Yah, tapi hal itu terbayar saat selesai pementasan bisa dibilang hati gue sujud syukur(fiuh, random) dan cerita drama kelas gue, yang notabene kelas ter-absurd satu sekolah dicap menarik dan kreatif ketimbang yang lainnya. Yay!

Enough with the shit of drama project. Now i got something to share to you...
Sebenernya gue pengen bangeeeeeeeettt nulis blak-blakan disini, tapi ya semua itu tidak semudah mengedipkan mata. Semua itu mengandung resiko malu dan bully-an yang akan gue terima jika gue blak-blakan.

TAPI...

Nothing Special This Time

Wazza! 
So i just passed my midtest for this semester and i hope the results are yeah...well. And i'm thinking to look up on my beloved site. I'm about to write something and i warn you, i'm not in the mood to write in Bahasa, cause i have done so much writing it! You know, finding such a wise word or sentence in Bahasa is quite hard. But hey! Don't get me wrong, i didn't say i didn't like the language-trust me, i barely speak english in conversation so i thought i'll use more english in writing.
Hmm, so here we go...

You know things just happened, and there must be a specific reason behind why they happened.
And what happened to me? LOL no! Not heartbreak this time.
My phone was broken last week, and i didn't have ANY phone to use for a whole week!

A broken phone is worse than a broken heart.

Yeah, that's what i'm saying people. And the worst thing is, i lost all my files, my contacts and my memos, repeat memos! My memo is filled with lyrics, quotes, cheat code(lol) and my poems!
That one latest poem, was the one i was about to share. Shit right shit
Now i have to remembering all over again, which is very annoying because even if i did make it full a poem, it's still not the same like the first i wrote.

I hate losing..........mostly losing....you.
Haha, joking people.

Well, i can't lie that i got it (my phone) back again but the files are still gone. But the bright side is at least i have it back. My true beloved one. Muehehehe.

Before you close this blog, i'll leave you with something. Check it out!

Friendship And Or Relationship

Wazza blogie! How are you all? I hope you guys are not sick....of me! Haha. Anyway, sudah ganti bulan dan baru saya post something on here ya! Kira-kira apa yang mau gue post hayo? 
Nah, sebelum itu gue cuma mau update keseharian hidup gue nih (biarpun gak ada satupun dari kalian yang nanya) that i have day off for almost 10 days! 10 hari readers, gue libur(belajar di rumah) this is just a simply heaven for a while. 
Tapi herannya guru tuh gak mau kalah ya, makin banyak hari libur makin banyak aja tugasnya.
But that's what it feels to be a student and frankly, i like being a student.
So now, let's see my post....

"Kenapa lu ga jadian aja sih sama dia?"

Di suatu siang gue sedang nongkrong nongkrong di sekolah sama temen gue. Kala itu sekolah kita memulangkan siswa lebih awal karena ada rapat atau semacamnya. But you know, i'm not really kind of kid that straight go home if her school end early, so i hung out a while with a friend and just talk.
Disitu awalnya kita cerita cerita biasa, seperti obrolan teenage girl pada umumnya. Lalu berkelanjutan dengan gue yang curhat sama sosok temen gue ini. Curhat gue kali ini mengenai...apa ya namanya?
Its name is, "Trying to figure out whether i like this one boy or not" yah begitulah.
Lalu, pertanyaan itu terlontar dari mulut temen gue. Shit...

Valentine's Day? Nahh....

Wazza blogieeee! How's everyone doing? I hope you all have a great day! 
I've been so freaking busy with school stuffs, exams, assignment atau yang gue sebut itu semua dengan 'shit' karena setiap tugas atau ulangan waktunya bersamaan, repeat BERSAMAAN!
But i found (stole) time to post something here, hmm..

So, what date is today, huh? February 14th? Yang mereka bilang adalah hari valentine, hari cinta, hari kasih sayang, hari saling kasih cokelat, bunga, kartu ucapan cinta dan blablabla.. whatever it is
Well sorry, but i don't celebrate Valentine's Day.
Why?

Ya, gue tau pikiran pertama yang terlintas di pikiran kalian setelah membaca kalimat diatas pasti "Ah, itu sih karena lo jomblo aje, jadi lo bilang begitu!"
Tenang! I got that a lot, tapi gue ga merasa down atau semacamnya karena..that's me!
Jadi kenapa gue bilang kalo gue ga merayakan hari kasih sayang tersebut?

Not A Love Letter

Dear you, 
We met last year but until now you still don't know my name yet
You recognized my face but you never tried to talk to me
But dear, i see you, every single day.

Dear you,
I wanna know your story
I wanna know your past
I wanna be in your future
I wanna be the first you think of in the morning
I wanna be the last you remember at night
I wanna make you a prince, ONLY if i am your princess
I wanna be with you.

Dear you,
I never ask you to know me
I never ask you to notice me
I enjoy doing this way
I enjoy secretly admiring you, watching you from across where you stand.

Dear you,
This is me praying that someday in years later, God will meet us up
in a place where there's nothing or no one's around trying to hold us back
In a place where we can be just us two
In a place where i can tell you everything i've been feeling for you all this time

Dear you,
I can tell you, this is not a love letter
I don't ask you to accept my love
Even though deep inside my heart, i hope you will do
I hope you do
I am just letting you know that i'm interested in you
That i'm in love with you.

And dear you, 
I'm not hoping you to find this crazy words i made up so fast
I'm not hoping you to read this now
Because i don't know if i'm ready or not hearing your reaction over this
All i'm hoping is you be you and i be me
You act usual everyday and i'm watching you. 

Guilty Pleasure

WAZZA BLOGIEEEEE!!!!!
Fiuh, what a busy week i had! Glad it's all passed now...well, not all, i still have some shit school assignments.
Sorry karena gue gak nepatin janji untuk nge-post lagi secepatnya.. yah karena some shit itu jadi waktu gue tersita. Tapi untuk sekarang di malam minggu, bisalah nyuri waktu sedikit ;)
As i told you before, i would tell you a story so here we go...

Suatu hari di malam minggu yang gue lupa tanggalnya, gue sedang berada di perjalanan pulang dari Depok ke Tangerang. Waktu masih menunjukkan pukul 9 atau lebih, tapi gue udah tertidur di mobil saat itu. Sesampainya di Jalan Raya Serang, gue membuka mata dan terbangun. Lalu tepat disaat gue bangun dari tidur gue, terdengar lagu ini di radio...

The 2013 Post

Wazza blogie! How are you guys? Oh, how much i miss posting on here so much, hehe.

Sudah 10 hari kita melewati hari di tahun 2013 ini...ga kerasa ya?
I know this sounds odd and ewh, tapi gue mau bilang Selamat Tahun Baru 2013 semuanya!
New Year, New Hope, New Spirit.
Kata-kata gue tadi bisa jadi 2013's resolution buat lo yang sampe sekarang masih belom punya resolusi. Hehe.

Sebenernya ini bukan macam post-an yang gue harapkan di post-an tahun 2013. Gue udah siapin pengalaman gue yang bakal gue tumpahin disini.
Tapi setelah berjam-jam blog-walking sana sini, browsing kemana-mana, dan download lagu ini itu.
I thought, "Gosh, i need to post immediately!"
Dan akhirnya dengan sudah menggebu-gebu gue klik blogger.com dan wala! I wrote out this post you're reading!

I really miss writing out every words on my mind, semua kejadian kecil sederhana yang bisa merubah gue hampir seluruhnya. (oke, ini lebay)

Anyway guys, how did you celebrate your new year?
Me? I celebrated it in a very simple way.
Oh iya, ada yang nulis gini, "Gue udah biasa ga ngerayain tahun baru." hmm, what do you think about it?

Actually i didn't go anywhere on NYE, but i went on a little fun with my some family member on January 1st.
And, something unexpected happened to me on New Year's Eve.
You wouldn't believe it.

Xoxo