Too Selfish?

Readers, as you know i'm currently in relationship with someone. It's been 8 months now.

I was happy, well i am now. But there's just at one time that i feel so tired, so bored of us. And we can't do anything. I'm too afraid to tell him what's wrong, i feel like i've asked for too much, i feel nothing at one time, and i don't want to lose him. And he, in the other hand doesn't do anything either. He can't comfort me when i'm mad, can't understand why i'm mad, always go with the flow-he never had this spontaneus side that i wanted in him. He always said these when we were in argument;

"What you want me to do to keep you happy?"
"Fine, i'll just do what you want"
"I'm sorry, it's always my fault"
"I've never understood you, right?"
"I love you, i'm really afraid if i lose you"

Of course, you guys think that's the most beautiful lines, sweetest lines that a guy could say to his girl. And now maybe you think that i'm way over too much. Well maybe i am. Once again, i realize that i always wanted more yet i couldn't say it to him. I barely did. 

But what if i told you that in every argument he always said those and never change? What if i told you if most of the time we had an argument for the same reasons? What if i told you that sometimes he did the same mistake twice? What if i told you that he barely remember his promises?

How Long Is Forever?

Hey guys, i wanna ask you something if you don't mind. Do you know how long is forever?

Ketika seseorang mengatakan "selamanya" apakah orang itu tahu bahwa ia akan mencapai waktu tersebut?
Terkadang gue mengalami perdebatan kecil di kepala gue mengenai tempo waktu "selamanya". Apakah "selamanya" adalah waktu yang akan dirasakan sampai bumi berhenti berputar atau hanya sampai salah satu dari kita memutuskan untuk berpisah dan mengucapkan "selamat tinggal". Who knows, right?

"I will love you forever."
"We're gonna be together forever."

So how long is forever?
Sadarkah kalian kalo "selamanya" bisa menjadi sangat lama atau bahkan sangat sebentar. Serta tahukah kalian bahwa terkadang jika ada seseorang yang mengatakan "selamanya" itu adalah untrue or lie.
Why? Because someone said that to me a long time ago, and he turned out to be lying.

"Cause i was there when you said forever and always... You didn't mean it baby."
- Forever and Always by Taylor Swift

2015 Impression

Hey all! How are you? Gaaah, i miss you guys so bad!
And oh, HAPPY NEW YEAR! It's page 2 of 365, what kind of great things you have done today? Haha.

First of all, sorry for (again) abandoning this blog, it's been like... what 2 months since my last post? 
It's not that i'm too busy, selama 2 bulan tersebut sebenernya gue punya sedikit waktu luang jika hanya untuk sekedar menulis tapi selama 2 bulan itu justru gue malah gatau harus nulis apa disini. 
My life had been good, everything's fine even until now so that's the problem. I didn't find any special moment or frustrated situation to share with you. I guess i'm still not a good blogger after all, right? 
But hey, check out my blog won't hurt anyone. 

But now here i am. Entah kenapa hari ini gue memilih untuk di rumah dan berleyeh-leyeh manja (kalo kata Syahrini) sambil main game Kim Kardashian, fyi that's my favorite game currently dan ngasih makan Pou gue. As usual, bored to stay inside but too lazy to go out. What can i say, i was born to be girl at home and it's like my destiny to have that desire in my vein. Blah. 
Anyway, let's cut the chit chat and head straight to the post itself shall we?

God, it's new year already! Dewasa ini waktu satu tahun ternyata cepet banget ya, gak kerasa kita udah ganti tahun. Bagi sebagian orang mereka menginginkan waktu cepat berlalu agar mereka bisa mencapai tujuannya, misal yang mau wisuda, nikah dan lain-lain. Tapi bagi sebagian orang, mereka malah menginginkan waktu untuk berjalan perlahan agar mereka bisa menyempurnakan momen kala itu dan mengingatnya sampai tua, misal dikala aku bersamamu aku ingin waktu membeku. (huft. apaan dah. jangan percaya. abaikan. yang barusan cuma bercanda. bhay).
Haha, gak bhay kok sekarang we will talk about myself and other stuffs!