Gone Away

(A Short Story) 

Aku melangkah menelusuri jalan dengan membawa setumpuk kertas hijau muda berukuran A4 di tanganku. Di setiap tiang dan dinding bangunan tua di kota kecil ini, aku berhenti lalu ku tempelkan kertas-kertas ini satu per satu pada tiang atau dinding yang aku temukan. Sejumlah kertas ini bertuliskan pencarian orang hilang. Aku berharap ada orang yang berbaik hati untuk membantuku mencari Adam, orang terpenting dalam hidupku. Aku tidak ingat sudah sejauh apa aku berjalan atau sebanyak sebanyak apa telah ku tempelkan kertas-kertas ini. Namun hari sudah semakin gelap, lingkar matahari mulai turun kebawah di sebelah barat, dan aku sudah tiba diujung jalan kota tua ini. Aku memutuskan untuk menempel satu kertas terakhir pada dinding bangunan kecil di sebelah kiriku. Saat aku hampir selesai menempel, entah dari mana datangnya, seorang wanita tua yang gemuk dan pendek, wajah keriputnya putih pucat, dan rambut pendeknya yang diikat kebelakang sudah hampir putih semua berdiri di sebelahku. Ia menyipitkan matanya dan mencoba membaca kertas yang saat ini, sudah tertempel di dinding.

LOST : Michael Adam Harris
Age : 17 years old
Specific Looks : Brown hair, bright skin, grey eyes, 6”1 tall.
Last Seen : January 1^st
If you see a person just like the characteristics above, please contact Clara Shalom on 310-256-4496                                                    

Sebenarnya aku sudah menyertakan gambar Adam di kertas itu, namun karena gambar Adam yang aku punya hanya tampak samping dirinya jadi aku tambahkan ciri-ciri yang lebih lengkap. 

“I knew this boy” kata waita tua itu tiba-tiba
“You knew ma’am? Wait, knew?” ku bertanya dengan mata membelalak
“Tolong panggil aku Mrs. Collins,” katanya 
“Dan kau tak usah memperkenalka dirimu, I know who you are.” Aku tercengang.
“Bagaimana kau bisa mengenalku?”
“It’s a long story. Aku akan menceritakan semuanya jika kau bersedia untuk minum teh bersama ku sore ini.”
Ku telan ludah di tenggorokkan ku lalu aku berkata “baiklah.” Tak lebih keras dari sebuah bisikan.

Memoritmo

Wazza blogie! How are you? 
Well, i logged on to blogspot and was kind of surprised that the number of my viewers is pretty good! Thanks all for visiting this, well freaky blog, i guess.
HAPPY HOLIDAY FROM ME!

Okay, so my final week is over and i already took a look at my score and yeah...some are good and some aren't that good, but hey i did my best on the test!
Dan sekarang gue lagi nunggu pembagian rapot di sekolah gue, and i can't lie to you that i'm getting a little bit curious myself! I really wanna know my scores of all this first semester in 11th grade.

Tapi gue gak akan cerita seberapa penasarannya gue tentang nilai rapot atau gimana pikiran gue ngebayangin nilai-nilai gue itu, NO!
Gue akan cerita tentang sebuah buku yang baru (sebenernya dari hampir seminggu yang lalu) selesai gue baca.

Jadi, pas selesai UAS gue udah niatin pengen refreshing. So gue refreshing dengan belanja novel. Actually, this is now my bad habit because my mom says this is useless and i spend too much money buying novels. Tapi itu hobi, dan ini hobi gue. Jadi mau gimana pun tetep aja susah buat brentiinnya, ya kan?

Ok, tadi itu itu kepanjangan. Langsung aja deh, gue beli buku "Memoritmo"

Antara Aneh dan Unik

Wazza blogieeee!!! So my final week is finally over! And now i'm just hoping for great scores of all of tests, and good rank at class for sure.
Anyway, kali ini gue akhirnya memberanikan diri untuk mem-post cerpen pertama gue...well cerpen pertama yang gue publikasikan, bukan ditulis.

Please, give me your credit! 

Antara Aneh dan Unik

“ANEH!!” kata pertama yang terlontarkan dari mulut Fiona, sang “pentolan” grup cewek yang ada di kelasku. Pagi ini aku menunjukkan Fiona dan 5 orang teman ceweknya tas yang baru aku beli. Dan itulah respon dari dirinya.

                                                      

“Kok bisa sih lo beli tas motif sapi kebun kaya gini? Gila lo ya!” katanya lagi.

Motif tas baruku polkadot hitam putih dan ada bunga matahari besar di bagian depannya. Saat aku membeli tas ini, aku kira ini lucu, trendi dan beda dari yang lain.

“Lo itu cewek teraneh yang pernah lahir di dunia, Ser!” 

dan itu kalimat yang aku dengar dari bibirnya saat aku berjalan menuju tempat dudukku di pojok belakang sebelah kiri. Fiona dan teman se-gengnya menyebutku aneh. Satu kelas menyebutku aneh. Sebagian guru juga berpendapat demikian, namun mereka menutupinya dengan sebutan yang lebih halus, "berbeda". Yah, memang kata itu terdengar lebih halus. Aku terkenal sebagai "The Quirky Serena".     
                                                                                                                       

Streams

Wazza blogieeeee! How's everybody doing? Doin' good? Good!

Sebenernya, sebelumnya gue sempet berpikir ulang untuk mem-post hal ini. Dan tadinya gue memutuskan untuk gak usah ngepost ini!
Tapi, karena gue mengobrak-abrik memo di handphone gue dan gue menemukan sebuah quote yang gue tulis sendiri, gue jadi berubah pikiran "kenapa gak gue share? Pasti seru kan!"

Anyway....
Quote ini ada hubungannya sama puisi gue yang judulnya "Streams". Ya, gue tau sama kaya judul post-an ini! Memang awalnya, gue berniat untuk mempost puisi itu tapi, puisi "Streams" tersebut sudah gue tempatkan di page "My Writing" bersama puisi-puisi gue yang lain, so kalian bisa liat itu disana!
Check them out, okay?
Dan gue akan menuliskan quote tersebut di akhir post-an ini, you know...biar terkesan dramatis.

EXAM IS ON MONDAY EVERYONE!!!!
Yap, Ujian Semester 1 di sekolah gue baru akan di mulai Senin, 10 Nov 2012 besok.
So, i will fight and May The Odds Be Ever In My Favor!

I hope i can post again on this blog, right after i receive my report score...which i also hope i'll get better rank than in 10 grade. So...pray for my scores. Ha-ha

Post-an ini mungkin agak pendek ya... Dan ini juga sebenernya udah gue panjang-panjangin dengan hal yang not so important.
Well, i'll keep up again after i receive my report guys!
Xoxo

QUOTE >>>

What I'm Up To

Such a looooooooonnngggg week!

Yah emang gak bisa dipungkiri kalo seminggu belakangan ini, sekolah gue KBM-nya agak sedikit kurang efektif tapi gue tetep ngerasa kalo minggu ini gue lumayan sibuk.

Anyway, this is the very first post that doesn't include this: 

Hahaha, i figure out it's getting stupid so from now on i'm gonna throw it away. Ewwhh!

Lots of assignments and tests.....yap namanya juga pelajar ya ha-ha

Tapi agak sedikit seneng sih gue, soalnya rata-rata tugasnya ini melibatkan tulis menulis. 

Well these days, my writing mood has been in the front of everything in my mind! Semua yang gue lihat, gue denger ataupun yang gue alami rasanya ingin gue tulis.

Even in one day, i can wrote two poems or what i think they are poems.

Gue juga beli buku "1001 Cara Menulis Fiksi" yah ini sebenernya gak wajib gue tulis sih..

Gue juga mungkin akan merombak blog ini, karena tuntutan tugas TIK juga jadi kalian (semoga) akan bisa mengenal gue lebih jauh lagi!

I AM BACK!!!!

Wazza blogieeeee!!!! How's everybody doing? Doin' good? I hope so!
Yap, i'm posting again...finally

I AM BAAAAACKKKK PEOPLEEEEEE!!!! Long time no see right? Anyone missing me? No? Okay..
So why was i gone? what would i do that for? Curious? Well, i know i sound "sok asik" now.... *awkward*
Alright, i'm gonna tell you what i went through last month until it freaked me out and leave social network for a while...

Here we go!

Bulan lalu entah apa yang merasuki gue, gue lagi demen banget make friends online with foreign people. Dan semua social network yang memungkinkan gue untuk dapet foreign friends gue jabanin.
At first i thought, it was fun! I could talk or flirt with them, and also practice my english so i would get better each day...but i wasn't careful.
Dan gue kebablasan.

Our Story

Wazza blogie! How's life guys? I hope you all have a good day!
Well, this next post i'm again gonna write down my "poetry" or that's what i call so!
Just...here, everytime i'm feeling down, i put down what i'm going through on words.
And so, here we go! 

Lately, let's just say i had someone special. I really liked this person, and he also liked me. We were happy called our self as a couple.
But something bad changed his mind. He said to me, we couldn't continue what we started.
He told me to move on, but he knew and we both new we couldn't do it...
And, none of us dared to say goodbye....
Because, we didn't want this to happen..

Heartbreaking huh?

Alright, i'm not gonna say any word again, now read my "poetry" or whatever it is

Please kindly read it, and give your opinion.

Turns Out To Be "Chef Family", All of Sudden

Wazzaaa blogieeeee!!! How are you guys? Missed me? hahaha! Sorry took a while not posting on this blog, but here i am! 
Enjoy reading!

Sebenernya gue mau posting kejadian ini di blog hari Minggu atau Senin, tapi apa boleh buat bisanya baru sekarang, Selasa.

Sebenernya lu mau posting apa sih res??

Yah, tidak penting banget sih buat kalian, but that was one of the best time in my life... so i need to share that! hahaha
Jadi, hari sabtu kemaren itu gue sekeluarga berubah jadi Chef semua. Ya, semua. Kita berempat.

Ide tersebut came from my dad, because he wanted it really bad to eat Nasi Liwet made by his own.
Namanya juga seorang bapak, pasti ga terlalu jago di dapur dan akhirnya kita semua turun tangan ikut masak nasi liwet sama ikan bakar.
Yeah, i was in...and i couldn't cook.

Ditengah-tengah masak atau kalo gue, bantuin masak gue terbesit pikiran.. This is one of the moment, i need to share this on blog!
Dan langsung gue meneriakan itu ke seluruh rumah "Sambil masak sambil difoto ya! Mau dimasukin blog!!" "Kalo udah mateng jangan langsung dimakan! Difoto dulu"

Dan yak, seisi rumah heran sih apalagi nyokap gue yang bilang "Ngapain sih pake difoto segala, kurang kerjaan" tapi ya untungnya my brother didn't complain anything so yeah...it went pretty well.
Nah, yaudah deh sekarang i'll show you those "unpretty pictures"

Deserve

WAZZZAAAA BLOGIEE!!! How's everybody doing? I hope you're all doing great!
First of all, sejak ini masih suasana Idul Fitri jadi gue pribadi dan sekeluarga mau ngucapin Selamat hari raya Idul Fitri 1433 H, Mohon maaf lahir batin.
That day is a day we Muslims have been waiting for! It's like a day that we're born again.
Wish you have a great day celebrating Eid Mubarak with all your family member, like i do.

Anyway, pengalaman sebelumnya pasti sebelum dan sesudah lebaran itu sibuk kan? Yeah, me too.
Sibuknya ya paling gitu gitu aja kan... bikin kue, beres-beres rumah, jalan-jalan beli baju lebaran, packing buat yang mudik dan lain-lain.

Even though so, i like being busy sometimes. It keeps YOU out of my mind.

Disela-sela kesibukan itu, herannya masih aja gua ngerasa ga tenang. I felt like.....i don't know i can't even explain that.
Have you ever felt like you can't do anything right? You can't think straight because of one thing on your mind? The worse is, you can't tell anyone about it.
It's just......you feel so insecure.

Terserah kalo mau dibilang lebay, tapi gara-gara ini gue sampe ngelamun, bingung mau ngapain. Ya mau gimana coba? Ngelakuin sesuatu kalo ada yang ngeganjel di pikiran kan ga bisa sempurna apa yang lo lakuin itu.
Maybe everyone sees me the way i use to act, smile, laughing and easy going. But deep inside is totally the opposite thing. Even i try everything to let it go, it just won't go.
I keep wondering why do i have to feel this way
Feel to have feeling for someone.

Puncaknya, karena ini harus gue luapkan, gue membuat sebuah 'poetry'
Tadinya, gue berniat untuk bilang ini lirik lagu, karena jaman SMP dulu gue pernah nulis sebuah lagu. Tapi setelah gue pertimbangkan lagi, poetry lah yang paling tepat.
Ya gue ga tau sih syarat-syarat untuk membuat sebuah poetry yang baik dan benar kaya apa, but i think i just write down what i'm feeling.

Here's the poetry i wrote, please kindly check it out!

Break Fasting With My Other 'Family'

WAZZZAAAAA BLOGIEEEE!! How's your day? I'm here to show you one of the best time if my life!
Check it out!

Tepat seminggu yang lalu gue buka bersama X6!
That evening was flawless! We were just break fasting and eat together, we laughed together, took so many shots....we were just having fun!
Kita buka di rumah makan 'Kampoeng Kalapa'. Tadinya mau bareng sama Pak Sujiman (wali kelas) juga, tapi takdir berkata lain, dia ga bisa hadir. Huft

But no matter what, i had fun with my other family :)

Yaa gue emang baru sempet ngepost foto-foto bukber kita sekarang sih, abis bulan puasa tuh sibuknya bukan main.
Sibuk segala-galanya deh -_- #LEBAY
Oh iya, yang banyak ngambil foto itu Astrid sama Fildza soalnya itu anak berdua yang bawa SLR.

Alright! Let's skip to the shots that we took! I took mostly candid pictures, because that's what i love...so
Here we go!!
Dear my classmates, siap-siap gue bikin malu yah :)

Happy 3rd Birthday My Twitter!

WAZZZAAAA BLOGIE!!! How's your day, huh? Pfftt mine was soooooo tiring!
But i knew i had to do this so here we go, my new post!

Bulan puasa walaupun banyak waktu gue yang ga gue habisin di sekolah tapi tetep aja gue ngerasa waktu gue tuh sedikit! Buat ngepost blog aja tengah malem gini ye kan -_- << alibi (padahal sih banyakin tidur)
Nah, tapi disela-sela bulan puasa, gue masih inget dong sama ulang tahun twitter gue yang KETIGA!
Yap! 2 Agustus 2012. My 3rd Twitter's birthday.
Hmm, iya gue tau post-an ini dimuat pas udah bukan tanggal 2 Agustus lagi..tapi ya gapapa lah telat dikit.
It's better to late 'celebrate' it than never. Haha

Sekarang gue mau cerita ah semuanya tentang twitter gue yang lagi ulang tahun yang KETIGA

Post Title Undecided

WAZZA BLOGIEEEEE!!! How's your all day? Annnd, happy ramadhan all! Hope you're still fasting right now, yeah now.. while you're reading this.

Anyway, does anybody still remember last time i posted my post here? I'm not gonna blame you if you don't remember though... it's been long time.
I haven't posted anything because i was so busy yet i didn't know what to post, i mean did i have to tell you every single little unimportant things i've been through?
Well, at first i thought i would... but people change their mind right?
So....what to say now? Trust me, i'm thinking so hard to type here.. maybe you don't see me or YES you don't see me, but i'm thinking hard to type.

How about this... i like someone. The other one. I'm not sure i like him like, 'a like' but every time i feel like i wanna go to school and see him. I'm scared that i'm way too far for his type. But, i just...This sounds stupid, i've never liked to talk about boys online, i mean i'd prefer to do it with my friends. People that know me.
I shouldn't have mentioned about this but it's too late, i think you all want to know or maybe...

HOLIDAY! WOO HOO!!

WHATUP BLOGIEEEEEE!!!
Gaaaah, it's been so long time i haven't posted hereeeee!! Hahaha sorry for that, i had nothing special to share about so yeah.... And it's just as same as this one -____-
Anyway, HAPPY HOLIDAY!!!!!! 

Nah, sekarang buat yang pelajar udah pada bagi rapot kan yeeee! Gimana tuh hasilnya? Bagus? *sok tua*
Lemme tell you about my report, well i got good scores but bad rank. I wasn't even on top ten of class!!! How suck, huh!
And the worse thing is... i disappointed my parents and could not promise them that it won't happen again *sigh*
Lucky me, they forgive me! :)

ANNND NOOOOOWW... THE HOLIDAY PART!!!!!! *sok asik* -___-
What's your all plan for this holiday? This time i'm going to go somewhere, across the city with whole family!
Yap, finally!
It's better than not going anywhere like we used to. Busy, no destination and bla bla bla.
It's not for very long time but who cares? I'm still going anyway, haha WOO HOO!!

I've been saying WOO HOO, haven't i? Haha you know why? Don't know? Wanna know? Mau tau banget? Serius? (haha just messing around)

Well, it's because BIG TIME RUSH's new single is OUT! WOO HOO!
It's called 'Windows Down' and they put WOO HOO on the lyrics! That's why.
You should CHECK IT OUT! It's gonna MAKE YOU HOLIDAY 100 TIMES BETTER!!! WOO HOO!

Yap, check it out!

AND, that's all from me. Next post after i get back from vacation or you know... soon.

Broadcasting Till USA

Wazza blog freaks!! haha how's it going? Did you guys know how long i haven't posted anything since my last post? Haha lol that's long time! But now, i'm stealing my time before the final exams to share with you guys, here we go!!


You like broadcasting and journalist world? Have you heard about PPIA-VOA Fellowship? Do you have any favorite of broadcaster or journalist? What do you think about the whole broadcast world? Exciting? Not cool or what? Geez! That's lots of questions! -_____- okay i'm gonna stop now and tell you what i want to tell you.
So listen, i mean read.

Kemaren malem sekitar jam setengah 10 gue online ditengah-tengah mengerjakan tugas gue, bahkan beralih-alih ngerjain tugas bahasa inggris yang harus diketik nah gue iseng buka websiteVoice Of America nya Indonesia di voaindonesia.com. Gue udah sering buka situs itu, bukan karena info seputar Amerika tapi buat nyari cara-cara menjadi journalist VOA. Yah kan siapa tau mulai dari sekarang ada, pas nanti gue kuliah gampang kan?
Tapi tujuan gue saat itu adalah untuk menuruti kata seorang temen BBM gue. Yang beberapa waktu lalu nanya lewat BBM ke gue:

MY BELOVED X-6 CLASS

Wazza blogie!!! Hope everyone have a great life lately and forever! So now i'm bringing you something that probably(hopefully) crack you up! What is it? Haha check it out

Hari ini di sekolah gue atau tepatnya di kelas itu bisa dibilang adalah hari 'nonton film di kelas'! Karena berawal dari pelajaran bahasa inggris yang emang cuma nonton dengan alih-alih berhubungan dengan 'narrative text' ya jadinya kelas gue, X-6 nonton beberapa film hari ini!

Anyway, disela-sela nonton, temen gue Winda dan/atau Fildza nunjukin foto-foto candid kelas gue yang disimpen di laptop yang bawa hari itu, Fildza.
You know what the best part? THOSE CANDID PICTURES REALLY MADE THE WHOLE CLASS LOL-ING!!!

Foto-fotonya itu bener-bener bikin gue dan seluruh kelas ketawa, teriak-teriak dan heboh pokoknya! Oh iya, jujur gue sampe nangis gara-gara ketawa itu -___-
Gue kasih liat aja deh ya foto-foto candid X-6 yang bikin sekelas jumpalitan.

Depressed Moment

Wazza blogie! I finally take my time for a while to share something about my life here, oh and i change something on my blog too, "IT'S RESSA" was no longer need because i change it into "Story of My Life" well, here we go eat my post!

I've been having kind of rough time this week and do you know what causes all of that? A lot of things! I don't even know exactly what they are or from where i should start to tell you. I just feel like everyone i used to know are changing and leave me behind. I feel like i'm the only one who have never moved.  I FEEL LIKE I WOULD DIE IN LONELINESS SLOWLY!

'Changing' and 'Growing Up' are DIFFERENT

Wazza! Never been here like forever and now i take my time to share on my not really cool blog. Okay, i decided to post something because i just took a look or stalked someone which is my friend's blog. Actually, two friends... yeah but nevermind. That's not what i want to share with you here anyway, here it goes!


I didn't know what brought me to open their blog, at first i just looked for some inspirations to make this blog of me more interesting to people. And, i also didn't know why i chose their blog. People that i can't mention their name HERE!
Sebenernya, 2 temen gue ini adalah orang yang sangat berbeda buat gue dan sangat jauh. Jadi, yang satu ini adalah temen deket gue, dan kita ketemu setiap hari, sedangkan yang satunya lagi adalah temen yang ketemu secara online, clearly twitter.Well, satu hal yang bisa dibilang sama menurut gue adalah, mereka sama-sama suka blogging!

Random Post

Wazza everyone! I've just passed mid test and now i get less more a week day off from my school! Whoop whoop! Anyway i've been thinking what to post here since i haven't gotten any good idea to do it. Well, i hope this one isn't that bad :)


Mid test, check. Sekarang waktunya menikmati libur panjang yang gue sendiri gatau harus melakukan apa untuk menikmatinya, pffft anak rumahan banget gue -____-
Haha, anyway gue jarang log in ke blog ini karena gue sibuk fokus ke blog fanpage gue yang satu lagi, yang ini! Gue lebih suka blog itu karena viewersnya udah 2k haha! Ayolah cek buat nambahin lagi
Oh iya, my story is finally done everyone!!! Yeah, i finished it!!!! Who wants to read it? well, it's actually a fanfiction about Big Time Rush that i started writing a long long time ago. Just lemme know if you do okay? Oh, i'll give you a hint, the tittle of my story is 'It's A Love On Stage'

Need it or Want it?

Hello everyone! Haven't been here like it seems forever, well you know i'm just focusing on my other blog, this and beside that i don't know what to post since i've seen my friends blog and they're all amazing blogger! Jadi, intinya gue rada minder!


"God doesn't give you what you want but God gives you what you need"
Buat kalian semua anak gaul twitter pasti sering baca quotes kaya gitu dari akun-akun yang emang hobinya nge-tweet daily quote atau semacamnya.
Sekarang apa yang mau gue share mungkin terdengar terlalu cewe atau abg-abg gimana gitu, abis mau gimana lagi? -_-
So, i think you better just shut up and read this post!

List To Do on Day Off: My Version

I got a week day off! yay! Libur seminggu atau lebih tapi kalo ga travel kemana-mana namanya bukan libur! Apalagi ditambah tugas sekolah yang numpuk. So once again? It's not day off! Gue punya beberapa alasan kenapa gue ga travel kemana-mana, berikut alasannya:

1. Gue tau libur seminggu itu mendadak, jadi no preparation
2. Banyak anggota keluarga gue yang sakit
3. Kucing gue sedang bunting
4. Banyak tugas

Yap! That's all why i didn't go anywhere on this thing i called day off. Anyway, karena gue ga kemana-mana, akhirnya gue punya beberapa hal yang bisa gue lakukan. Bahkan gue juga membuat listnya, mau tau ga? Mau aja ya daripada bonyok. And i called the list

List To Do on Day Off: Ressa's Version

1. Vote for Big Time Rush and Agnes Monica on KCA
2. Continuing my fan fiction that i started long time ago
3. Working on my assignment
4. Eat, Pray, Sleep
5. Twittering
6. Re-read novels
7. VOTE FOR BIG TIME RUSH AND AGNES MONICA

So i told you my list to do, and now i'm telling you to VOTE my favorite boyband which is the greatest band of the history of the world BIG TIME RUSH and proudy AGNES MONICA on Kid's Choice Award!


I gave you the link, so what are you waiting for? GO VOTE VOTE VOTE!!!

It's Nice To Be Accepted

Hey everyone! Happy Sunday!! How’s life? It’s been like forever I didn’t post anything here since my last post! You know what guys? I have a week of day off because the seniors at my school are having finals but that means i can't see my crush! LOL! But now I’m going to post my happy new experience in life. Check it out!!

For some of you that are following my every post on this blog surely know that I’ve ever had problem with friends. I didn’t mean I had no friends or everybody at school hated me but… I realized they took a few steps away from me. Wel, yeah I know that it was because of me. I couldn’t control my self, I didn’t know what came out from my mouth that it might hurt their feeling, I didn’t know I act like a fool until one day, there was someone told me to stop doing that.

And yes, I took her judge even it took me a while. Then of course, I was so depressed and I felt like that was the end of the world. But I was so grateful that not all of my friends stayed away from me. I still had and have this one person who always support me and tell me to do the right thing. This person helped me going through everything until it gets easier.

I can’t say their name because I don’t want to. I also hope that person doesn’t read though. Now I’m happy again because I’m accepted by them who told me to stop act stupid and have stayed away from me for a few times. I’m gonna say maybe it’s because of that person, I can have my funny, crazy, up to date, unbelievable friends around me. I can now laugh with them about stupid and unimportant things and mostly, I’m accepted to be around them. This may sound too much, but it’s nice to have random friends at senior high school. Cheers.

Well that’s my happy experience in life!! Or I shall call it different but I don’t know what else. And before I’m done I’m gonna give you my art! It’s a photo taken and edited by ME yay! I know you’re going to say it’s not great or it’s okay or maybe it’s ugly! But I don’t give a shit you know haha, here you go!

Thanks for reading, xoxo.

Just Like Butterflies

Hey all! Happy Sunday! 
I'm gonna post something here as always hoping to entertain you! Here we go


So i just finished read my novel, 'Just Like Butterflies' by Claudia Natasia. Have you read it or heard that novel? Well i'll tell you. This novel is written by a 19 years old girl. Though she's indonesian but she wrote her novel in english. This novel isn't about love story or princess and her prince, but it's about a girl who discovered the beauty of faith and love during summer. This is the prologue that written on the back of the book.



"Living within the boundaries of unrequited love was something that sixteen year old Chantel hated. Adopted from China into what seemingly was the perfect family, Chantel grew up with a scar across her face; a remnant of her past that made her see herself and the world as a terrfyingly ugly place. With the scar; love and everything beautiful was non existent. Living within her rebellious cousin's footsteps, made Chantel sink even further into her own pool of fears, where she slowly realizes that the farthest she could possibly get to a happily ever after at this rate, were her dreams. However, all it took was one summer to change everything." 



This novel released in 2010, and i only bought it around January 2012. When i found out that it's a novel written in english by Indonesian girl, i was so happy. Because i've been searching that kind of novel and 'Just Like Butterflies' was my first one. 
In this novel, Chantel was just like me. I'm not adopted or have scar across my face, but i'm so afraid to face the change and always feel i'm not beautiful. But Chantel also taught me that every girl is beautiful and deserve happily ever after with a guy like Josh.

Claudia Natasia the girl who wrote this novel said that the money she got from selling the book, will donate it all to an orphanage in Ambon. Isn't she so sweetheart?
You can click this for more information about it.

After read her novel i'm thinking i want to be like her. I mean, i want to write my own novel in english either indonesian and publish it. All of sudden it's now become one of my dream.

I will be soon working on it and hope to publish it someday. Amen.
A girl can dream.


Me and 'Just Like Butterflies'

Thanks for reading, xoxo

Hacker or Stalker?

Hey all! It's been 10 days i didn't post anything here because.. you know busy and kind of lazy. But here i am now, to entertain you with my post! Here you go


Hacker or Stalker? Why do i want to post about it? Well, i just want to let my mind tell the differences between those words. And which one is better to me. First of all, i'm gonna tell you how my day was.

Jadi, hari ini gue ikut semacam seminar blogger gitu dari sekolah. Seminar itu dari perkumpulan blogger dan hacker se-Banten gitu. Rada kecewa sih gara-gara dibilangin katanya setiap kelas harus ada perwakilan 4 orang, tapi nyatanya? Berantakan banget yang dateng. Selain itu, gue juga ga ikut praktek siaran learning broadcast gue, yang udah gue tunggu-tunggu dari awal learning broadcast itu berjalan. But i didn't regret it, it was all worth.

Check out their blog here

Oke udah jelas kan ya? Sekarang gue mau berbagi sedikit apa yang udah gue pelajari dari seminar itu. Pertama, gue mau mendeskripsikan pengertian Hacker dan Stalker versi gue.

Hacker

Hacker menurut versi Ressa adalah, seseorang atau beberapa orang yang dengan sengaja ingin merusak bahkan mematikan suatu server atau semacamnya milik orang lain. Isn't it rude?

Walaupun seorang yang seminar itu bilang kalo dia ga pernah meng-hack web seseorang untuk merusak, melainkan mencuri datanya. Singkat cerita, karena gue lupa apa kelanjutannya dengan melakukan hal itu dia bisa mendapatakan uang dari google sekitar $10 USD setiap ada yang meng-klik web yang telah di-hacknya itu. Iya gue tau, itu kreatif dan menguntungkan cuma gue ga habis pikir aja.. What does he do that for? Money? Is there no other good way to making money, ONLINE?

Stalker

Setelah panjang lebar mencurahkan hacker tadi, sekarang giliran stalker menurut versi Ressa.

Stalker menurut gue adalah orang yang hanya ingin membuka dan melihat-lihat web seseorang tanpa ada maksud merusak. Yah kalo ngacak-ngacak sedikit wajar kan? Kalo misalnya keder, gini deh lu bisa dengan indahnya mengetahui password web seseorang dan menggunakan web itu selayaknya lu adalah pemiliknya. Misalnya, buat bajak twitter seseorang! Lu bisa menghapus tweet orang itu atau mem-follow dan unfollow sesuka lu. So, kalo lu mau bajak twitter seseorang ga harus lewat blackberry, iPhone atau aplikasi twitter di handphone biasa. Gimana? Ngerti maksud gue kan sekarang?

Sebenernya kalo stalking ini, menurut gue pribadi hanya bisa digunakan buat jejaring sosial, tapi kalau web atau server bisa di-stalk, unfortunately i have no idea.

Setelah baca pengertian Hacker dan Stalker versi Ressa, apa pendapat kalian semua? Inget ya, jangan terpengaruh dengan deskripsi gue itu! Kalau kalian berpendapat lain yang jauh berbeda dengan gue, no offense, kay?

Thank you for reading, xoxo

GLOOMY TUESDAY

Hey all what's up? I finally have my time to post something on here! So, won't take any much longer, here it goes!!!

Well, technically yesterday was valentine’s day, but to me it’s just Tuesday. Why? Since I’m moeslim and they say there is no valentine for us, so I go with that. But if you wanna celebrate it, it’s up to you! You don’t have to take my words seriously, okay?

Right, since I didn’t celebrate valentine this year or like before because… maybe because I’m single! Hell yeah I lost count how many times I’ve pasted valentine without boyfriend or something, I do still have friends anyway! Don’t forget that! And I’m not 'forever alone'!! I hate those words! Who created it? Couldn’t they make it softer? It hurts you know!

I’d love to use words like, 'single for a while' better than that crap! Stop using those words from now on, okay?

Jadi, kenapa gua ngasih judul post-an gue ‘Gloomy Tuesday’?

Mau tau? Baiklah!

Intinya gue itu galau mendadak di tanggal 14 februari 2012 yang bertepatan dengan hari valentine atau hari selasa kemarin.

Kenapa gue galau? Apa yang membuat gue galau? Begini ceritanya….

Jadi, hari selasa itu gue pulang sekolah. Setelah sampe rumah gue melakukan hal yang biasa gue lakukan, ganti baju lalu tiduran di kamar sambil mainin blackberry gue. Hal gue lakukan adalah bukan bbm-an, tapi gue twitteran.

Saat gue sedang me-refresh TL di twitter for blackberry gue, tiba-tiba gue liat username the-boy-who-can’t-be-named muncul di TL gue.

Nah, mungkin biar lebih jelas, hubungan gue dengan 'boy' itu adalah kakak kelas dan adik kelas sewaktu gue smp. Tapi, mungkin kalian perlu tau, I have feeling for him for over 3 years, it’s long time I know! I just don’t know why I still can’t get over him even though it’s clear he doesn’t like me that way, EVER! He only see me as friend, even his sister.

Kalian tau kan kalo punya feeling ke seseorang gimana? Oke! Kemudian setelah itu gue stalk twitternya. Rata-rata isi TLnya yang seputar boys gitu ga jauh jauh dari bola, tapi ada satu yang mencolok mata dan hati gue.

Disitu gue liat dia mentionan sama entah bener atau salah, adik kelasnya. Kenapa gue bisa bilang gitu? Ya karena that 'boy' manggil ke dia itu ‘De’ dan dia itu cewe.

Bukan hanya mentionan, tapi that 'boy' was flirting with her on twitter! Repeat, flirting!

Mungkin kalian nganggep itu biasa, tapi itu sakit menurut gue. That 'boy' yang awalnya ga pernah manggil gue dengan sebutan ‘De’ tiba-tiba manggil gue dengan kata itu saat dia men-DM dan BBM gue. Gue masih terima saat itu. Tapi lama kelamaan that 'boy' makin tambah cuek sama gue. Kemana dia yang dulu? Kemana dia yang gue tau bakal manggil gue dengan nama gue sendiri ketimbang ‘De’? kemana dia yang mau gue ajak jalan, walaupun belum tercapai sampe saat ini? I want the old him back!!

After of all, gue ga bermaksud suudzon tapi gue punya firasat dia benci sama gue. Entah apa yang telah gue lakukan, dia menjauhi gue.

Gue harap gue ga suudzon dan ini semua salah, gue ga bisa bohong tapi gue masih mau deket sama dia. Entah daya tarik apa yang membuat gue susah move on dari dia.

And that’s what I called gloomy tuesday! It’s not really sad when you read that, but if you were me, you could feel the pain inside.

Anyway, happy valentine for you (sorry i'm late), wether a couple or not! And thank you for wasted your time to read this post of me. Love, xoxo.

Language Transformation

Hey all what's up! Been long  didn't post anything on blog well finally here i am! Anyway, i'm gonna change a bit for.....for whoever. What would i change? My language! As you know i've never posted anything in Indonesian, so starting from now on i will. I am Indonesian, a pure Indonesian, so why don't i use my own language huh? But even i'll post with Indonesian, i won't stop use english on my blog. I will keep doing that, even now you read me write english right? Just for you to know, i prefer write anything in english than Indonesian. No offense


Seperti yang udah gue jelasin tadi di opening or something,gue akan mulai menulis blog dengan bahasa indonesia. Jadi, gue mulai dari postingan ini sampai seterusnya postingan lain akan menggunakan bahasa indonesia. Sebenernya ga 100% bahasa indonesia, gue akan tetap menggabungkan dengan bahasa inggris. Kalo dipresentasikan mungkin sekitar english 60% indonesian 40% kali ya. Gausah komen!
Anyway, sebenernya gue ga ada hal apa-apa yang mau gue share, ga ada cerita menyenangkan, menggalaukan, mengejutkan dan semacamnya. Gue cuma mau ngasih tau ini aja, something that i call it BIG ANNOUNCEMENT.
Kalo dibilang gue ga punya cerita, apa segitu flat nya hidup gue sampe ga punya story untuk dipublikasikan?
Actaully i have tons of story, tapi cerita itu ga ada yang menarik menurut gue pribadi. Cuma cerita daily biasa yang ga bisa masuk nominasi untuk dishare di blog.

Nah, setelah kalian baca tulisan gue diatas, sebagian dari kalian pasti akan beranggapan bahwa gue itu mencoba untuk melawak, ya kan? Ngaku aja!
Ya memang mungkin gue mencoba dan bukan mungkin gue gatau kalian ga akan ketawa.
Daripada makin ga jelas i better wrap this down okay! Toh, kalian juga ga menemukan poin yang penting kan di-post an ini?

SELAMAT MEMBACA!!

If "be myself" is not working, who else i should be?

Hey all! How was it going on page 6 of  366? Hope it went good and for the rest 360 days. It's been so long time i haven't posted anything yet here. Well, it's because of i'm lazy, busy, tired and all... oh including fangirling. Here i am now to flow every words on my mind that i've never ever got to say in front of people. Maybe some of you got confuse why i always post rough, sad things in my life.. that's because i haven't gone through something WOW in my entire life, like MEETING BIG TIME RUSH!! So, while waiting them to come here, i might always gonna post those sad things lol. So here it goes!!

They said  "don't try to be everyone else to make you look good, just be yourself because the only one who can make you look good is your own self" FYI, that was not a quote of great people, that was mine. I made my own quote few seconds ago. YAY
I believe in that line, it kind of have spirit for soul, mind and stuff. But what if i already know myself isn't a good self? Isn't that i want? Isn't that everyone likes?
I tried to BE MYSELF but i didn't work! I still couldn't get my eyes off of my friends' personality. I always thought that they were always one step forward better than me. They always found a way to make them stand out, to make them visible. It crept me up.

I just want to somebody that people want to i'm around them. Somebody that people wanted, needed, asked to be around them. Why is that so fucking damn hard to be?
And i want them to want me as my own self! They don't need me to changing to be what they want, i want them to need me, the real me.

Dear God, i know  you made no mistake when you created humans in this world, but why i always feel i have so many mistakes in me and make everyone goes away from me? Am i that bad? Am i that ugly in your eyes and their eyes?
I'm sorry really sorry :( if this just my paranoid, i want you to stop it and grab it away from me. Because this paranoid sometimes make me feel lonely. No friends, family care about me.


I'm also sorry if i made this way over too much, i had mix feelings when i wrote about this here.

There you go! I know what you thought after you read that but i better not telling you, okay? ;)
Have a great day everyone! :D