Bad Mood

What's up visitors and followers? How was your all day? I've finally got here again to share with you guys cause i love entertaining people and that's my job. So now i better stop the chit-chat and write my story down here! Here it goes!!!

Bad mood.  Yap, those words sound familiar for teenagers and in fact, they use them every day of their life. Hey, i'm teenager so if i use that, it makes sense. 
I was really bummed today. There were lots of things that made me felt that, and actually not only today. It's been days those things keep making me unmood. 
First, i just passed exam few days ago and i surely know my score won't be amazing. I'm not smart, remember i didn't say i'm stupid. Because i know my score won't be that great, that made me...again under pressure. I feel like i've disappointed my parents. They always think i'm still as smart as i was in elementary school. I'm afraid to tell them about that. Most of all, they will see my report book and all my scores. Fuck. I'm in trouble.
Second, i knew i'm now not 'smart kid' anymore but i still have 'a good' at one school subject, English. Yes, that's the only subject i can, i'm good at and i like the most. I thought my score will be awesome, will be like 'yeah' but na'ah!! I've checked it!!! At first i was hoping i'd get the best score at english in the class but I FAILED! What am i suppose to do now? I have no good at anything. I have nothing to think.
And last, this thing is the most make me in that bad mood. What is it? I called it myself, "It's now not good as it was" 

It's now not good as it was

Well, i know you guys are curios what did i mean by that. (Just pretend you are) It's....look!
Just say in high school, i'm member of one just call it extracurricular. It's uhm Broadcasting! So i learn about broadcast and stuff in it. This extracurricular has one leader and one deputy leader. Before this leader became the leader, the old leader TOLD HER that 'anyone who don't have any business in this extracurricular, don't let them in! In the room or even this extracurricular'. It's really clear, right? But now THE FACT? She which is the leader of this thing that I AM IN, BROKE IT ALL! She puts those FAMOUS, PRETTY, AND RICH people in that extracurricular!!! How could her? 
She was just influenced by them, by their SWEET FUCKIN' WORDS!! Didn't she think how hard i was to be in it? HOW HARD SHE WAS TO BE IN IT? HOW HARD SHE WAS TO BE THE LEADER OF IT???? We went through AN AUDITION to get part!
This is unbelievable!!! I can't stand.....just DAMN!
Now, i want back myself off of that but again i can't. I was loving this broadcast thing for two years and will continue on. This is hard for me. I don't feel like i can keep go on that if...those famous-pretty-rich people are in part of that extracurricular too.
That's a lot of pressure :(

That's all what i've been feeling these days and been dying to share it here. Before i say thank you for reading it, i'd love to give you my quote. I DIDN'T STEAL, I THOUGHT IT MYSELF!

"Don't write a new story if you haven't finished the old one yet. That'll make you more confuse to end it"

WELL NOW, THANK YOU!! Xoxo

Confuse of what to be

 Hey all! It's been forever i haven't posted anything here. Well, you know why? I'm so busy with school, homework and stuffs and of course i had nothing to post. But now i already got one. 
So here is my story and hope will inspire you :)

Most of people tell that they're under pressure because of love, heartbreak and things like that. I used to felt that but now i'm not. I'm under pressure because of stabbed me from my back and stole my idea. And it's not just that, there's more than it. I feel i'm under pressure when i can't decide what i would be in the future.
Let's start this story, when i was in middle school i was obsessed to be announcer or broadcaster. Then i was still in middle school i wanted to be a model. Not a real model, i just admire amazing photos then i thought i want to be on it. Now, i'm in high school i start to love writing fiction stories because, i loved reading them first. I don't care if for you who reads this thinks stupid but it's hard for me to choose. Because why? You know, i'm not good enough to be one of those or all of those dreams. I'm amateur and i can do it just because i like it.
I really confuse what 's better i pick and of course it'll make me success. I need a light to figure this out, i love being all of those but i don't think i can since you know, i'm amateur.
I still can't find the right answer for this, i'm hoping i get it soon. So i won't be in this situation anymore. I won't be under pressure.

I get you guys a picture! It describes how do i look when i'm under pressure.

Under Pressure

Under Pressure. What do i wanna talk about this stuff? I don't even have any idea. No, serious this time. I wanna tell you what's the definition of "Under Pressure" to me. To me under pressure is that feeling when you have got stabbed by your friend from back. You know? It's like they're playing game on you, it's like they stole everything you had and everything you have planed. For example, i took this example from my experience so READ IT CAREFULLY you have chair mate at school or just say closest friend. You told them about your dream, ambition etc. At first they didn't care about it or maybe they thought your dream is weird or you exactly have no potential to be like that, like be a songwriter (seriously this is an example). Yeah, they didn't believe you can't be a songwriter. Thing can get worse they bully you. They thought it was stupid, it  silly, you had no potential etc. But you know what happen next? THEY LOVED YOUR DREAM AND SUDDENLY TRIED IT! You know what happen after they tried? THEY BECAME MORE SUCCESS THAN YOU AT THAT PART AND EVERYONE AGREED! Fuck, sometimes i wanna punch my friend's face shit bitch! unfortunately she's still my friend and will always will. Can't you see? I meant, you do it for long time, you've wrote lots of songs with your own inspiration, you told everyone that you were good at it but then? You friend that bullied you, loved it, tried it, successed and THE MOST PAINFUL is everyone that YOU'VE BEEN TOLD AGREED. I cried when i reminded this moment of me. At there you felt like they betrayed you, they hit you from behind, THEY COPIED YOUR IDEA. Didn't hat hurt? It hurt and it really did.
My question, have you ever feel like what i told you above?

That's my experience of being "Under Pressure" sounds stupid? silly? I already know
Seriously i still wanna puch HER face, LOL
That's all. Love, me xoxo.

Introducing me

Hey  visitor! Thank you much to take your time to take a look at my blog, i appreciate it! So here is i'm gonna tell you about my self. Let's see, what do you want to know about me? Well, seems like no one response this i'm gonna start in my way LOL. My born name is Raessa Adliashany but i prefer write my name as Ressa Adliashany just in case if i'm famous later it's gonna be my "famous name". My family and friends call me as Ressa, so if you want to be friend with me just call me with that. I am teenager girl. My hobbies are posing in front of camera, writing, imagining and online. I think that's normal and all teenagers have the same hobbies with me, right? What else? oh i know, i'm kinda friendly and catchy person. HAHA

This is enough for now okay? You can soon describe me when you read all my posts here. Again, thanks so much for reading this, you know i love it when someone appreciate my work. Ignore this. 

Hugs and kisses from me, xoxo.