Depressed Moment

Wazza blogie! I finally take my time for a while to share something about my life here, oh and i change something on my blog too, "IT'S RESSA" was no longer need because i change it into "Story of My Life" well, here we go eat my post!

I've been having kind of rough time this week and do you know what causes all of that? A lot of things! I don't even know exactly what they are or from where i should start to tell you. I just feel like everyone i used to know are changing and leave me behind. I feel like i'm the only one who have never moved.  I FEEL LIKE I WOULD DIE IN LONELINESS SLOWLY!

You know what i mean that's not even what i mean. What i mean is... people around me seemed to compete to get uh you know, boyfriend i can't seem to follow their rule! Oh damn what am i talking about here .....
This morning one of my friend showed me, everyone that they just got a lover, honestly i didn't envy at all, i was  just confused how could people get lover so easy when i was here haven't moved?
I refuse talking about love but the reality only force me to talk about it and i just can't deny.

I'm not trying to be anyone else, but sometimes i want to feel how it feels to be in someone's position. You know i want to feel be a popular kid in school, genius kid that join every competition, be someone who have lots of cool friends and hanging out a lot, easily get a love and blablabla. Every teenager like me would think that it's perfect life!

But i do now God doesn't give what i want but what i need. So if God doesn't give all of those thinngs, it means they're no good for me and somethings good are wait for me across the street.
I believe i just have to wait that moment when i can fly away, free from all of this "Depressed Moment"! :')

OH!!! Almost forget! I promised to give you the link of my fanfiction, well it's >> HERE <<

Sorry for bad sentence, i'm just learning. 
Thanks fo reading, xoxo