A Letter to My Heart

Dearest heart,
How are you?
I hope you're not hurting again this time, okay?

Oh, excuse me?
Now you're confused
What happen to you, heart?
Will you tell me?

You're saying you can't figure out what you're feeling
Well, so am i
In fact, you make me feel, what you are feeling
And it's hell

I guess it all started since yesterday
Since the day he made me fly away
Since the day he made me smile again 
Am i right?
Of course i am

Do you like him, heart?
Don't you dare asking me back the same question
Because if i say no
You must be saying yes
And i will be ending up go with you

Is this even right?
He is nothing you've ever dreamt he would be
He is nothing you've ever thought he would be
He is nothing you've ever seen he would be

Answer me heart, please
But of course you can't
No matter how loud i scream your name
You are still confused after all

But heart,
Help me out, okay?
You can't stay confused forever
And living me wondering in sorrow
You're the only one i can trust
One and only

Hey, heart
One more request
Just be careful when you feel like fall in love


Much love,
R. A

A Little Spare In Those Crazy Days

Hellooooooooo!
Wazza my beautiful viewer!  How are you?
Gaah, i miss blogging so much and you couldn't tell!

"Man, it's been a long day, stuck thinking 'bout it friving on the freeway..." 
Yeah, i just quoted the song from Maroon 5 because those lines represent what i currently feel.
I'm sorry that i haven't posted anything in... well, ages. I had no time even to just writing what's on my mind.

Guess i'm not a good blogger, am i?
But here i am now! Stealing a bit of time to write to you guys and basically i want to let it out what has been going through me.
So let's begin!

Today's date is March 14th, which means a month left to national examination. Or should i say 30 days left to freedom?

So Thankful For The Bless

Hello everyoneeeee! How are you guys? I hope you guys are all in good way.
Ugh, how long did i abandon this blog of mine? 
God, i was so busy, like very damn busy with this shit called senior year. Exams are everywhere, practice are everyday, taking course is a must and blah blah blah...

Belum lagi seminggu kemarin ini, ujian semester ganjil yang 'sedikit' gue anggap sepele dan akhirnya gue kena karma. I failed at my Geography test (sigh) 
Anyway,
Tadinya gue memutuskan untuk post-an kali ini tentang confession gue mengenai...ya biasalah, love.
Crazy, stupid love. 
Tapiiiii, ternyata something great happened to me just now. I couldn't believe it at first, but yeah it happened and it did for a reason. 
Apapun alasannya, gue tetap bersyukur sampe sujud syukur karena hal ini udah terjadi. God writes or life story, he knows every chapter of our life cycle, he know what's good or bad for us even though sometimes it's not the way we want. And for that, i am thankful. God gives me more than i deserve, that's a serious thing. Even my thankful won't be enough to pay off everything God has given me. 

Thank God.
Alhamdulillah.

And it's the end of October...and i got my "seventeen"

Hello everyone!
Wazza?
Sorry, i haven't posted anything here because so many things happened this month. I can't even tell you one by one because they are just so many. 
Anyway i'm here now, and i'd love to share somrthing with you guys!
And oh, i miss writing blog so much <3

October...
All i can tell you is that, this month is quite special to me.
I don't know why it is so special for me, oh yes i know!
Oktober adalah bulan dimana gue lahir.
October is my birthday!

Dari semua kejadian yang terjadi pada gue di bulan Oktober, yang gue inget hanyalah ulang tahun gue.
Ya iyalah, who doesn't memorize their month of birth?
By the way, my birthday was on October 16th.

And it was very special to me because i've received the best wishes and gifts i've ever or never asked for. But most all, because i've got some best, best friends anyone could ask.
Kecuali untuk satu hal, yaitu dia.
Apa yang terjadi dengan dia?
Dia yang belakangan ini menjadi topik atau inspirasi untuk setiap tulisan gue, di blog ini atau di lainnya.
Dia adalah......

The Theory of Love

Hey everyoneeeeee!!! Wazzaaaaaa
How's you all doin'? I hope all of you in a good condition.
What time is it? Haha, it's midnight and you should be sleeping by now, Res...but turns out i can't sleep so here i am, blogging after almost a month i haven't said any words.

Ugh.
Senior Year is driving me insane! It's killing me slowly inside, these! These steps to graduate, to collage, to future and to everythinggggg
Semua kegiatan bener bener menguras tenaga dan mostly waktu gue. Seminggu penuh pulang sore, dan kalo gue pulang lebih awal,segunung tugas menanti. Belum lagi stress and over-thinking about choosing the right national university and bla bla bla...
Gue gak ngerasain ini waktu kelas 11. Hidup gue bahagia tanpa ada bayangan deadline PR dan tugas yang menghantui. Kelas 11 mungkin adalah masa-masa terindah gue di SMA dan masa-masa gue suka sama.... ah sudahlah,

Tapi mungkin, itu juga kesalahan gue. Terlalu terlena dan terbuai dengan bebasnya peran sebagai pelajar dan asyik main kesana-kesini, asyik sibuk dengan laptop kesayangan dan menyelesaikan novel yang sampe sekarang masih gue sembunyiin dan gak ada orang yang tau.
Namun sekarang, berhubung gue gak bisa tidur padahal besok adalah hari Senin, hari yang laknat menurut gue dan hari yang semakin dekat menjelang UN and stuffs, jadi gue putuskan untuk nulis sesuatu aja disini!
(Plis Res, itu gak ada hubungannya!)

So here we go... "The Theory of Love"
Apa sih itu?