Bad Mood

What's up visitors and followers? How was your all day? I've finally got here again to share with you guys cause i love entertaining people and that's my job. So now i better stop the chit-chat and write my story down here! Here it goes!!!

Bad mood.  Yap, those words sound familiar for teenagers and in fact, they use them every day of their life. Hey, i'm teenager so if i use that, it makes sense. 
I was really bummed today. There were lots of things that made me felt that, and actually not only today. It's been days those things keep making me unmood. 
First, i just passed exam few days ago and i surely know my score won't be amazing. I'm not smart, remember i didn't say i'm stupid. Because i know my score won't be that great, that made me...again under pressure. I feel like i've disappointed my parents. They always think i'm still as smart as i was in elementary school. I'm afraid to tell them about that. Most of all, they will see my report book and all my scores. Fuck. I'm in trouble.
Second, i knew i'm now not 'smart kid' anymore but i still have 'a good' at one school subject, English. Yes, that's the only subject i can, i'm good at and i like the most. I thought my score will be awesome, will be like 'yeah' but na'ah!! I've checked it!!! At first i was hoping i'd get the best score at english in the class but I FAILED! What am i suppose to do now? I have no good at anything. I have nothing to think.
And last, this thing is the most make me in that bad mood. What is it? I called it myself, "It's now not good as it was" 

It's now not good as it was

Well, i know you guys are curios what did i mean by that. (Just pretend you are) It's....look!
Just say in high school, i'm member of one just call it extracurricular. It's uhm Broadcasting! So i learn about broadcast and stuff in it. This extracurricular has one leader and one deputy leader. Before this leader became the leader, the old leader TOLD HER that 'anyone who don't have any business in this extracurricular, don't let them in! In the room or even this extracurricular'. It's really clear, right? But now THE FACT? She which is the leader of this thing that I AM IN, BROKE IT ALL! She puts those FAMOUS, PRETTY, AND RICH people in that extracurricular!!! How could her? 
She was just influenced by them, by their SWEET FUCKIN' WORDS!! Didn't she think how hard i was to be in it? HOW HARD SHE WAS TO BE IN IT? HOW HARD SHE WAS TO BE THE LEADER OF IT???? We went through AN AUDITION to get part!
This is unbelievable!!! I can't stand.....just DAMN!
Now, i want back myself off of that but again i can't. I was loving this broadcast thing for two years and will continue on. This is hard for me. I don't feel like i can keep go on that if...those famous-pretty-rich people are in part of that extracurricular too.
That's a lot of pressure :(

That's all what i've been feeling these days and been dying to share it here. Before i say thank you for reading it, i'd love to give you my quote. I DIDN'T STEAL, I THOUGHT IT MYSELF!

"Don't write a new story if you haven't finished the old one yet. That'll make you more confuse to end it"

WELL NOW, THANK YOU!! Xoxo